Earlier I decided happiness was going to be the way forwards and it all worked until I tore a ligament in my shoulder; that was the final straw.

I miss her so much, and when my mum said “what do you want me to get to make your shoulder all better?!” (meaning a magazine, or chocolate) I just couldnt hold the tears in,

Now I’m sat here in pain from my shoulder and in pain from the emptiness i feel in my heart, my family are annoyed with me because i’ve shouted at them all and I’m not gonna be able to play american football this season!

i wish i could just get away from everything for a week or two, everything i love seems to be fucking up at the moment.

my word of the day failed.

A.